Happy Birthday To Me!

Yup, yesterday I made 32 years happen. My birthday itself was pretty lackluster.... Work, the dentist, a solo beer at the  pub (Abita Purple Haze, thank you very much), and dinner with a friend and their roommates. The company and the food was good, and i didn't mind the relaxed evening.

I realize how funny (to me) it is that there are still adults that think, "ME, ME, ME" and want ALL of the attention on their birthday, even if they share their birthday with others. It's one day, and we're adults that can buy many of the things we really want. Hence me, alone at the pub with my beer.

 I'm the one that's blushing/attempting to blush next to the cake. I don't feel as if I deserve anything. I don't expect anything (too many let downs in the past). I just want to have a  low-key time with friends.

My friend (and his roommates) yesterday would not let me cook, they said, "It's your birthday." I'm not accustomed to that type of pampering. It's my birthday so... I can't yield a knife in the kitchen? I don't expect and have learned to live without people doing things for me... Which is maybe a problem in itself. Hmmm.... Things to think about...


*sigh* Still trying to get my groove back (Hey Groove! Where'd you go?)

I just got a call back!!!!............
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From the dentist.... Yeah, x-ray gone wild.... The x-ray tech had the pleasure of seeing me again in the waiting room (as I waited for my teeth to be cleaned) and told me something came up on the film and the dentist wants me to come back in tomorrow to check on my teeth and take care of things before they get serious.

Yay for me! I know that $#$% happens, but can it stop happening to me? I'm guessing I'll either need a root canal or they'll have to replace my porcelain crown that I chipped while flossing my teeth last year (yes, I CHIPPED a tooth while flossing!) with a gold fill. Or a root canal... Both sound like loads of fun.

Today was not a good day. I feel out of sorts and as if I'm carrying the weight of the world/my expectations on my shoulders.

Today I:

- Arrived at work to find that music had been cancelled (because no one bothered to tell the Kindergarten team the music teacher would proctor the state tests)

-Received an official letter from my school district that I'm officially a displaced teacher this fall and need to bid on a position in the next round or else forfeit my position 

-Made a Mother's Day project with my students that involved paint... MOST of them followed instructions...

-Got dressed up to go to Happy Hour and the Ballet (Don Quixote!), and looked DAMNED GOOD!

-Missed meeting up with a friend at the train station, arrived at the Happy Hour locale and snagged us a table

-Greeted above said friend, who remarked, "I was worried something happened to you! Ok. Now I'm irritated and I need a drink." (*angry voice*).... (friend from Dec. drama... I think I need to break up with her...)

-Decided I didn't want to be yelled at (because she came back from the bar with a drink, asked me what was wrong, I told her that her comment didn't make me feel good, since we both miscommunicated- and I left my phone at home, and she started yelling at me about how she had the right to be irritated- true- but didn't see my point as to that's not how you greet someone, or something you say to a friend over a miscommunication. Even if you feel that way)

-Left Happy Hour without having a drink, and headed back home... Waste of a $6.20 train ticket and $29 ballet ticket (though, I feel better lounging at home than I would have being in her presence and having to pretend I was ok)

-Got stuck in the middle of the Oakland Occupy protest (HUGE throngs of protesters), and had to re-maneuver my route to the freeway....

-Ate 2nd dinner... because I was still hungry....

-Watched 5 episodes of, "Dance Academy" (because I had the time)... Almost as good as the live ballet... Almost...